just a bit.

I wanted to write, but I have no idea what about. Hmmm...my oldest niece's boyfriend reminds me of Forrest. Not in looks, but in demenor. Yeah, I'm close enough to them to know her bf that well. Is that weird? I had him over and we played Madden. Whatever. Family's important to me. I grew up with a weird sense that no one was really interested in me as a person and so I acted as if I wasn't anyone to take interesr in. Hence, my continual amazement when anyone does. Whenever someone tells me they find me attractive or interesting it kinda surprises me still. I've become a stronger person recently, more secure in myself and my undeniable awesomeness. Yay me.

On a less mentally stable note. Dude, I am friggin' losin' it. Between insomnia and episodes. I am two steps away from developing a serious emotional breakdown. Like my Mom's miserable complaining leaves me {this close} to being like "I watch you sleep and think about killing you violently." Not healthy.